A letter to my lover....

Hey there love,

It's weird for me to actually take our blog as my own personal diary,where i'm gonna pour wat's in me..I know the content that I'm gonna type next would sound a lil bit self-centred and mebbe a lil overwhelming perhaps...but im sure it wont bring any peril.

Darling,
Tonite,im sure u went to bed annoyed at me...cuz i din sound at all amorous....no kisses n hugs for u like always.....
Well......i was waiting for u to give me first since i was such a good girl,patiently waited for u while doin my work n not distracting u....but nthg.....
how depressing......
still, i cant blame, can i?

call me sensitive,but for this couple of weeks,i dont quite much felt the fiery passion adi........everything seemed to be a lil cool.....partially due to my cuckoo brain from the medication and maybe due to ur own exhaustion.......hm......really wished tat our date wud increase the intensity but the true fact lies that everything still seem surreal to me.....it's like im not really there even when im there......its a numb n distant kind of feeling......dat is why i fail to feel the actual fun of it...but i din wanna break ur happy bubble so i smile when i felt like sulkin =)
Im not sure if u noticed,im actually a pretty icy person at heart.as happy n bright as i might seem to the world yet deep down i know there is a dark and cold side of myself.i never confess that to anyone as i find that a flaw and shame to my sunny exterior.So sometimes,when im not laughin or kiddin a lot it doesnt have to mean that im mad at u,but juz dat im keepin in touch wif de ice princess in me.These days,im more of the ying side.......i juz cant wait for me to be full of the yang instead..i hope tat its coming around fast.

lastly.....
never hesitate to hold my hand in any occasion.....
cuddle me when i seem cute to u.....
hug me.....when there are moments worth hugging for
look me in my eyes with all the tenderness and love ur heart feels for me
kiss me on the forehead when u wanna tell me that u will always be my prince....and protect me
some touches and kisses......are meant to tell u that i care for u....i love u........or i miss you.......
not every single one would mean that same thing u have in mind.

i could only be more expressive when i know tat all my actions are not always indicating to de sexual side...because deep down,i still wanna believe in innocent and pure love that would connect 2 souls.....


love always
-Lizzie-